I am writing a book! For the first time ever, information is pouring out of me as if I were channeling it from somewhere other than my brain! I have been typing almost non-stop since 5:00am and I don’t feel tired! I know I will see this project through to the end and it will touch the lives of many people in positive and effective ways.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR INSPIRATION!!!
The man on the other end of the line said he was from some development company, planning a project that would include a B&B, a vacation home complex, a spa, and a wedding chapel. Oh, and would I be interested in running the project?
WOULD I?!?! This is my dream come true!!! He gave me his name and his company information. I ran home and Googled him. It turns out he’s like the Mexican Donald Trump. He developed from scratch three of the country’s leading resort TOWNS. I’m not talking a hotel here and there, people. I’m talking entire cities. From scratch. And he is PERSONALLY contacting me on the phone. There IS a God, and he’s listening to my prayers. Thank you!!!
“Dating me is not easy,” Mr. T warned me a few weeks after we met in person. “My research requires long hours of solitude and frequent trips. My previous girlfriend didn’t understand that and we therefore had many problems.”
I just smiled and silently gave thanks for having found a man who was so dedicated to his work and who could amuse himself without needing to have me by his side 24/7. I enjoy my solitude and was looking for someone who would respect my need for time alone.
A few months later, reality set in. I spent Valentine’s night alone, watching documentaries on my computer while Mr. T worked through the night to finish a grant proposal. Today is President’s day, and while it could be the perfect rainy day to cuddle under the blankets and watch movies together, Mr. T is at the library and I am whiling the hours until dinner time, when I’ll see him again.
When we lay together in bed and I ask him what he’s thinking, he answers: “I’m trying to envision n-dimensional sphere packings” or “I’m trying to apply the Navier-Stokes equation to the forecasting model”. Really romantic. It would be nice if his response was: “I’m thinking about how lucky I am to have you in my life.”
The funny part is, I don’t need for him to say this. I know that, through the countless hours of research and academic bureaucracy that keep him away from me, he appreciates having me in his life and he shows it in many beautiful ways.
I am so happy and grateful because:
- The man I am in love with is passionate about the work he does.
- I don’t need to babysit my boyfriend.
- I have ample time to do the things I love without having someone impeding my enjoyment.
- Everything he does, he does for us.
It is challenging to be grateful for areas of my life I’m not satisfied with. However, I understand that in order to move beyond where I am right now, I must appreciate the actions I’ve taken that have brought me to my present status.
Three years ago, I was completely dependent on a manic depressive husband. In his eyes, my worth was contingent on his moods. He made one bad decision after another, taking us from a life of comfort to an existence of uncertainty and – in his eyes – impending and unavoidable doom. My only escape was to become financially independent. I had an idea; it wasn’t my life’s dream, it was just an opportunity that arose at a time when I needed to know I was capable of breaking from his chains. I started my consulting company from scratch, with a computer, a phone, and a vague idea of how a wedding took place.
I remember feeling overwhelmed by my first three clients: so many decisions, so many choices, so many questions! I was a factotum, answering clients, calling vendors, crunching numbers, managing an advertising budget, creating a website, and trying to be a wife at the same time.
The business flourished; the marriage tanked. All through the year following our separation I buried my head in work and plowed on, regularly putting in twelve hour days and six day workweeks. I came out emotionally bruised and physically exhausted, but stronger, prouder, and more secure in my abilities. Thanks to my hard work, I have established a positive reputation with my vendors and clients, and my business now runs itself in many aspects.
I am so happy and grateful because:
- I have trustworthy and professional vendors who are thankful for the opportunities I provide for them.
- I get to promote my country and present it to people who’ve never visited before.
- I have a flexible schedule and can work from any place in the world.
- I have friendly clients who trust and value me.
- I have learned just how far I can push myself, and I’ve discovered that I am a lot more talented than I gave myself credit for.
- I am financially independent and live a comfortable lifestyle.
- I have the strength and intelligence to accomplish anything I set out to!!
